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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 13:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

All the time i was locked up.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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My life is so biszare .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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And i lived it daily.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She loved him until the end.

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When she asked me how she looked .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

I have no regrets .

But it wasn’t much.

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As i do to all so called friends.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I think the readers, may guess!

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I couldn’t, believe it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Would this be the day?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

It was going to be , some day.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I said to her

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I write beautiful poetry .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My family never makes their pension either.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So, i spoilt her more .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I don,t even have a pension.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He resisted the act ,that day.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She was in good health!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We were not on the streets..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

What did i know ?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I never cut or harmed myself..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

So whats the point in blame.

I will be 64.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

This is soul school!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We all went to grammer schools

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Put me off passion for life!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Especially a lifetime of it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She married twice! .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But ive been too sick for many years..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She found it foreign!.

But, we were locked up after school.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He knew the spot.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Who then, do I blame.?

I was 9 years of age.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Was to survive, this bastard.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Ive learnt so much.

Im still living with it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was very sick at this time too.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She wouldn,t have been !

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I waited trembling.

I was scared of men, in general

On the 31st of Jan this month .

One cannot live in the past .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.